*This is my baby girl looking into my eyes the first day I was her Mama*
Noelani's name means "A beautiful gift/mist from heaven". We picked her name out with great meaning behind it. I never understood when I was going through my infertility battles why I was being punished. I used to always tell everyone "what did I do to deserve this!!!!!" I felt like God was punishing me because I wanted a baby sooooo bad so I must have really done something to piss God off. One day, a light bulb went off after talking with some newly introduced friends. I wasn't being punished, I was being prepared for something greater!!! I always cried and said "I never wanted babies after I was 30" - I wanted 2 kids by 25. Antoine and I had known each other since we were 19 so it wouldn't have been far fetched to think I'd have kids by 25. Well, that just wasn't meant for us. And oh my goodness how I am EVER so thankful it wasn't meant for us to have babies the natural way. Look at the blessing we received!!!!!!
It was almost exactly 3 months after we were approved for adoption that Noelani entered our home. People wait YEARS, and we only waited 3 months! This little girl was meant to be our daughter. Noelani was born EXACTLY 9 months after my invitro fertilization failed. She was born right before our home study was approved - and as a freaky fun fact - the exact day I was working on our profile and uploading pictures online - Noelani was born. We happened to name her almost EXACTLY the same name as one of her sisters that was born a year earlier (we didn't realize this until recently - and their names literally differ by 2 letters).
So - to say my last while in my 20s was the best of my life is probably an understatement. I got what I wanted - to be a mom! And not just a mom....a mom to the BEST little girl in the world.
Thank you Noelani Ailynn - for blessing our lives in more ways than you will ever imagine. I love you more than words can ever explain. I hope you never ever forget that and always realize how much I love you.
I love you baby girl!!! Thanks for giving me the best year and a half of my life so far xoxoxo!!!!!
Awwwwwwww! See, it was all meant to be. It was all written in the stars before we ever even knew it. They arent werid freaky facts....they are all signs that it was just meant to be. :) We have those weird freaky facts too... gives you goose bumps huh?!
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