Transfer Day!

Well, I tried to upload a video of Noelani doing her puzzle lastnight, but Blogger was taking FOREVER and it never worked. SO, I wasn't able to do that update. This post is a bit jumbled, sorry in advance!
Here is a picture of Noey in her car. This car is something Dada got for her - it lights up, plays music, and even has an ipod attachement. For weeks she loved this car. Antoine can remote control it for her, and when she gets older, there's a foot pedal for her to drive it. Suddenly, she has become terrified of it!! It is the weirdest thing. She never got hurt in it, nor did it ever "bump" into her or anything. Lately, when we are outside, if a car drives by, she is terrified and acts like it's going to jump the curb and run her over. Must just be a weird phase she's going through!!! She won't go near this car anymore! I've tried to show her the buttons and get her excited over the music - but it's not working. Ah well, maybe next summer she will love it again!



TODAY is the day that my mom goes to rehab!!! Amazing to think that just 3 days ago she had a 5 hour procedure done!

 I don't know if I'm just feeling sentimental or what because of her having this surgery done, but lastnight I couldn't sleep, thinking about all of the people in my life who never got to meet Noey or be a part of her life - it makes me very sad.
My dads friend Bob, he was a wonderful man. In fact, he used to always  tell me the story of when he and his wife adopted their daughter Alyssa. EVERY.SINGLE.TIME he told me the story he would cry. When I was going through infertility treatments, he used to tell me "Jenn you should just adopt, it was the greatest experience of my life" - then he would proceed to tell me about it and cry. Oh, how I wish he would have been here to see US experience it.
My dad also had another friend Loreen, and she actually died a few weeks before Noey came home. Before she died, she saw the website Antoine & I created for our adoption profile. She held my hand and told me - in the hospital, "Jenn, you and Antoine have WONDERFUL things ahead of you and I just know you are going to get a baby and you are a great friend and I just wanted to let you know you will be a wonderful mom". She knew she was dying. I wanted SO badly for her to be a part of it. In fact, the night of her memorial service, we left following it and drove to NYC to pick up our daughter - so maybe in a weird way she was part of it.
My mothers friend Kathy - whom I grew up calling Aunt Kathy, never got to meet her. She was the first person who took my sister and I to the "new" mall when it was built. SHE is the person who gave me my love for animals. SHE is the person who taught me how evil the circus is to animals - and the reason why Noelani won't go to one until she is old enough to decide for herself. I wish so badly she could have met Noelani as well. My aunt was a social worker, and I'm sure she would have helped us through the adoption process.
Lastly, my Aunt Diane. That was my Godmother. I miss her - SO.MUCH. She died unexpectedly. Never in a million years would I think that would happen to her. Of course, I didn't expect ANY of the above people to pass away. But, it is a strange feeling to know your Godmother has passed away. Her daughter and I had become very close the year prior to it happening, and I am thankful that our relationship bloomed to be able to help her through losing her mom. However, people change and grow apart - and my  cousin and I don't really speak anymore. THAT is another person I am sad that Noelani doesn't know. I am very sorry that my cousin and I don't speak and I wish that was different.
I guess I am thinking of all of these people even more the past few days, because I am ever so grateful that this dr helped my mom, and she has a long recovery ahead of her - but it is totally worth it because she gets to be even healthier in the end and continue to be an active part of Noelani's life.
I am ever so GRATEFUL for that.