This is why I cried....

THIS.IS.WHY.BEING.INFERTILE.HURT.

I would cry for days. I thought I was cheating my husband out of this. I could not accept that I was cheating him out of being a daddy. I cried many tears through those years. For myself AND for Antoine.

I believed that I would never give him a chance to feel the love between a son/daughter and himself. AND it would be my fault. At least that is what I thought. 

I was SO wrong. I believe the bond they have is one of the strongest I have ever seen between a Daddy & daughter. I believe our wait and struggles makes their bond even stronger. 

Every single day her Daddy comes home, she SQUEALS with delight and runs to the door with her arms up. Then her and Daddy have to spend time rough housing, ended by some snuggles and kisses.

As rough as those times were, and as sad as I was - thinking he would never be a Daddy....all of those tears were worth it. Every.single.tear.

I wouldn't change a THING....I've said it before. If I had to do it all over again, to end up with Noelani as my daughter, I would. I would NEVER want any other little girl besides her! I'm sure her Daddy would agree 100%!!!!

Sidenote: Tomorrow, Noelani will get to see Yo Gabba Gabba Live - she will FREAK! I am so excited to see her little smile. I remember last year, she was only approximately 9 months old when they came. She used to giggle and smile even that young. We realized she was way too young last year, but KNEW if they ever came back she would go. Not only is she going - we got the VIP passes so she can attend the "after party" and hang out with the Gabba gang. As I said, she is going to FREAK!!!!!! She sleeps with her stuffed Brobee and Muno every night!!!!!